What is life without pursuit? Yet, to pursue is not what brings something to you. It is coming into vibrational alignment that does it, according to master coach, Abraham Hicks.
How did I get here? I ask myself. Construction Supervisor. Aren’t I just a singer, a girl with a dream to perform on large stages? Do I really need to learn to build them in order to perform on them? It feels like double duty. What am I missing? Did I manifest this or is this predetermined?
I have a hard time saying no. Is this my version of saying yes to it all and finding a way to make it all work out without having to put forth rejection? Experiencing rejection is one of my worst fears; but am I really proving anything by doing this, by showing up for this nearly unmanageable workload?
Singing sets my life on fire. Sets it into water. Sets it onto earth. I breathe it. Will I work in construction forever? I hope to design music studios and restore concert halls and tell myself this nearly everything day so that I can muster up the energy to keep going. After all, we all need a job, right? A way to sustain myself. But does it have to be so extreme? I just want to sing. I want to sing and pour my heart, body, mind and soul into everything I do. That’s it. That’s what I’m here for. That much I know. So where does time management and accountability fit into all this? And what about saying no? This is what I would like to know.
So, I think, to reconcile all this, I will design a microphone stand of construction tools, you know, so that I remember where I am
sourcing financial stability. This stability provides me a budget as a producer which then allows me to support many other artists. I think what I am looking for is a greater return to match, sustain and grow my output. Is it possible to increase my income exclusively in the arts. How, if at all? Am I doing the right thing? What is right? I think this is right.
And my last note, I have found that DHEA caplets; and, liquid ginkgo biloba and fulvic minerals added to water, daily, helps with my ability to focus and retain information. By default, the reward system in my brain and bodily systems frequently lights up; and so my anxiety has lowered, self-confidence and self-trust have gone up.
If you have read this, thank you. If you are feel discouraged or overwhelmed, acknowledge those feelings, write it out, meditate, find that discipline and consider evaluating your food and supplement intake to support what you envision for yourself in greatest vibrational alignment that lights you up.